Showing posts with label musings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label musings. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

life is good



My husband has been home for a few weeks. Sooner is loving his new backyard. We've planted a ton of herbs (tasty, and cost effective, to boot) and have an awesome back deck.

We live in a great city, cute neighborhood, and are enjoying awesome food - which really, is about all it comes down to, right?
What else to say other than we are so blessed.

More to come soon, but in the meantime, we're taking applications for friends. Any takers in the Norfolk area?

photo from here (the last remaining great american lifestyle magazine in my opinion)

Sunday, April 26, 2009

couldn't have said it better myself.



Thank you, Bob Dylan, for speaking for me and describing exactly how I feel in these last few days before David's return.

I feel a change comin on.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

when you are engulfed in flames

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I got to see the ever-charming and thought-provoking David Sedaris read at the Peace Center tonight. He shared some new work and I cannot wait to see how the pieces continue to shape with his wit and insight and how (and if) they end up published.

The best story of the night was a story of an Australian bird, a kookaburra, but it wasn't really about that at all. Instead, it was about life and hope and fear and failure and family and love and success and hurt and, amidst all of that, moving forward and onward. Which really, at this point, isn't that all that's left to do?

photo from elizabeth soule whose work, at least to me, is kind of about all of the above as well.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

counting days

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This photo totally makes me think of Norfolk, which makes me think of how soon our lives are going to change, which in turn makes me day dream about drinking beers on the beach, eating crabs and oysters by the bay and being hip, young and in love.

Oh the life.

For those of you not moving and whose husbands are not returning in three weeks, you can just swoon over the vintage maps as wallpaper. I for one, will put it on the to do at least once list.

Photo (and many others that will make me daydream) from here.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

holla.

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you know who you are. (and these days, who DOESN'T relate?)

believe it. i sure as heck am trying to hold on, too.

want this reminder on your wall? get it here.

Monday, March 23, 2009

the theme song for my year

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I will admit that I am now getting antsy. It's been a year (OMG!!) since my husband packed up and left me behind in South Carolina to go play war in the Iraqi desert.

At that point, I thought that things couldn't get any worse. I should have checked my thoughts at the door because it seems that the general way of the world since then has indeed been nothing BUT worse.

Imagine my delight when I stumbled upon a great old Mountain Goats' song "This Year" about six months ago. It became my theme song and carried me through the late fall and winter.

But things have gotten old and the lyrics started to lose their impact. Really, it's time that this is over and I get to have a normal life, even in the midst of record unemployment and general financial doom.

Leave it to Jen Berkman and 20x200 to offer me a last thread to hang onto. And of course thank you, Mike Monteiro. As soon as I can afford it, this print will grace my walls as a reminder that we can handle anything life throws us. At least for a year.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

the weather is here. wish you were beautiful.

Or so I said to Sooner as we entered Norfolk this afternoon after 6 and half hours in the car.

Shortly thereafter, I found myself loving the small city, and though I never thought I'd say it, I can't wait to live here.

It may be the coastal, laid back vibe. It may be the adorable bungalows and cottages just screaming for evenings on the porch. And it may be that the weather was perfect this afternoon. However, it most likely is the fact that MY HUSBAND will live with me here.

And that thought makes me smile so hard that my stomach hurts.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

i swear i am competent.

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Rant for the day: why is it when I most need to sound and seem competent, collected, articulate and professional, I seem to make the most mistakes and end up coming off as none of the above?

frustrating.

In other news, who's gearing up for the big game tomorrow? I know of at least one labrador who despite his namesake, would like to see nothing more than a Clemson vs OU match up with a tiger victory.

Go Clemson!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

hope

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Tonight, despite all the chaos in life, in the midst of cold and the snow and the imminent loss of power, I feel spring is near, my husband will return soon and the next 2 years will be full of joy.

This print from blissful images, one of my favorite etsy photographers, should be appropriate to commemorate the day.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

it's the little things in life

I normally don't eat "heat ups" as David calls them. But with recent circumstances, I've introduced a few new (read cheap) items into the rotation.

Today I had my first WeightWatchers Chicken Quesadilla. It was fine.

But the instructions on how to prepare? Maybe one of the funniest things I've read in the past few weeks.

They begin:
1. Remove 1 (in BOLD!) Quesadilla (1 serving) -- Once again, BOLD! Return second Quesadilla to freezer. (yes, in italic)

Directions continue:
4. Microwave on high for 1:45 - 2:15 minutes (watch closely as overheating may cause loss of filling)

Let's get this straight: is some woman out there using the directions to prepare her 220 calorie meal to provide her last bit of will power to avoid eating something that actually tastes good, like a real quesadilla? If so, God forbid she lose the least amount of filling that she deserves for being so good and listening and returning the second quesadilla to the freezer. I can only imagine her reaction. Well, screw you WeightWatchers, you lost my filling, so I am going DEFY you and ignore that first instruction to return the second quesadilla to the freezer. Woman's gotta eat.

Really, this is hilarious to me. I keep thinking about it at random times of day and laughing at loud. At this point even Sooner recognizes the absurdity.

It's the little things.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

what's new is new

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Yet another sentiment that's not only appropriate for the times, but just as appropriate for our entryway.

Loving this print from Bold and Noble.

Valentine's Day is just around the corner. David, I know you're in Iraq and all, but are you noticing trend here?

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

yea, sewanee's right

Feeling a bit wistful for my days at Sewanee lately.

Found this quote from a religion professor that really sums up the way my time there has shaped me.

"Sewanee is about dreaming. Not ideals and fantasies but about the visions that inspire us, the dreams that lead us, the high idealism that makes us change the world when others quit. We are not satisfied that you might get a very good education here; what is the point of that if you have no wisdom or compassion or generosity or leadership? We do not educate so that you can go away and feel certified and satisfied. We pour ourselves passionately into your dreams because of our dreams: you will become the way we change the world. No less than that. We live in a screwed up world that needs what Sewanee people can offer and we expect you to take up the cause, dream the dream, make us proud, make the needful smile, and make God notice." -Smith

I pray for help in living it.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

what's old is new

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So what if we've all seen this poster everywhere lately? With the ways of the world these days, I know that I need the reminder. 

Saturday, January 24, 2009

happy anniversary, bug

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Because Sooner is a rescue pup, we don't know his birthday or even what year he was born. That leaves us to celebrate our anniversary–three years today.

At the end of last year, I entered a contest in which I told our story. We didn't win. In honor of the occasion I thought it might be fitting to share with you.

It was my husband's idea to get a dog. Not mine. We were living in a strange state, far from friends and family, had been married only a year and I had never really liked animals, simply tolerated them. But he kept asking. And asking. And asking.

One slow day at the office, I started researching rescue groups. I had made up my mind that if I ever did get a dog, it would have to be through a rescue, one that really really needed us. So, I discovered Lab Rescue. We filled out our applications. I noted that I wanted a "chocolate female lab around 1 year." We carefully considered our answers and hoped for the best (for him that meant being approved, for me that meant.. well.. i wasn't quite sure). We got a call from an adoption coordinator and she was pleased to tell us that our application had not only been approved, but that she was so excited that we had indicated that we wanted a male. WHAT? Afraid to say otherwise that we might no longer be approved, David went along with her, of course, a male dog was perfect for us. She gave us the names of 3 dogs and the information of the fosters to contact. We could take home any dog that we thought would be a good fit for us.

So, off we went to meet these little guys.  The last one was a yellow, almost white, lab with no pigment in his nose or around his eyes. They called him "Alphie." He had been scheduled to be euthanized when he went unadopted at the pound. Lab Rescue intervened at the last minute and had put him in their foster program. He had truly been at death's door and needed someone to save him. We visited that afternoon with the guy, took him on a short walk, watched him play with his 2 foster brother dogs and told the family that we would think about it. Eating dinner that evening, David decided "This is it. This is our dog. He needs us." I, hesitantly, agreed and we took him home two weeks later. We named him "Sooner" so he would never forget where he came from.

I didn't know what to do with a dog. I was fearful to go home if David hadn't already gotten there. I was afraid to leave him in the house and I was afraid to be left alone with him. I just thought I was going to mess him up more.  He also had ear infections, ate dark chocolate, ate raisins, ruined our christmas presents and destroyed our hardwood floors, costing us much more than we would have ever thought. He was a handful, incredibly curious and always hungry, in much need of training and socialization. My friends jokingly called him "the lemon." But there was something to be loved underneath that. Slowly, he and I adapted to one another and, in fact, started to like one another. He brought us structure and routine and could be counted on to bring a smile to our faces when his wagging tail would inevitably knock over anything of value in our home. With lots of exercise and several training classes, he evolved into a loving, sensitive little man, still not to be trusted around food, but who would do almost anything to please us. And finally, he had become "my" dog, following ME whenever I left the room and always finding me when he wanted someone to take him outside or go on a walk.

Last year just after Christmas, David called me at the office, his voice audibly shaken. This is a man who doesn't cry, so my first thought was that someone had died. Instead, he informed me that he was being sent on a 14 month deployment to Iraq. As a military wife, I've made it through a lot of time apart from my husband. But 14 months seemed way too long and I feared for his life and our marriage. When we came home from work that evening, I sat on the couch and cried like a baby. I didn't want this to happen. I didn't think I could handle this. I didn't want to do this. I was so afraid and felt so alone. Sooner, obviously alert to something going on, lay down beside me and didn't move. Just sat and watched and every once in awhile, let out a long, slow sigh. That was the last time he let me sit and be sad.

We're six months into this deployment, and this little guy has been my trooper. He has developed a sixth sense of when I need to laugh, get outside or have a change in scenery. He makes me go on walks and runs (2 a day!) and is a constant reminder of life and all that is good in it. He doesn't sit or wallow when lonely, but instead finds something to entertain him, be it the birds outside the window or a search for a little morsel I might have dropped in the kitchen. He has taught me how to bounce back from the bad and find happiness in the small subtleties in life. He, I think, has saved me from a path that I would have easily gone down without him. He has given me purpose, love and hope.

The dog David wanted, the dog David wanted to save, Sooner. He has saved me.

shout out to Rachel Boling for her great portraits of the bug.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

well put

"It's easy to obsess about what might have happened when there are only two possible outcomes. But when you're not exactly sure what futures you're choosing between, whatever path you end up on finally feels inevitable." - Seth Mnookin

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

113



113 days - that's all the time left until David comes home and we start our "real" married life after almost 4 and a half years of his deployments. 

2,712 hours.
226 more walks with Sooner. (at least 500 miles...)
113 nights going to sleep in that huge bed without him.

But, I'm working on focusing on the smaller numbers:

A little more than 16 weeks.
10 friend and family birthdays.
8 more Clemson basketball home games.
3 more haircuts.

Here's to them going quickly.